Humbled...

Often as we go through this process we find ourselves kind of on the outside. It seems odd that surrounded by so many people we can feel this way. It's not that there is not a strong connection to those that we're around; it's just that we are displaced from where our hearts are and where our goal has been set. We can forget that everyday as the sun rises and sets there are people out there serving in a manner that our hearts long for. It's easy to get one dimensional in the task of building a team to partner with "us" out there. We can get very "us" focused and forget about the God that is spinning out His great plan, conducting a unified and glorious symphony. Lately, there has been too much "us"... and as I was thumbing through the "latest and greatest" of those already serving in Indonesia, it hit me right between the eyes. The following excerpt is from a recent newsletter:



How selfish of me, how narrow-minded, to think that this journey was a plan that we had for ourselves and our family! How dare we think that we were in some way manufacturing this adventure on our own time and our own strength. How foolish to think that all of those months ago as we were going about our day-to-day with a lack of peace, praying for a neon sign and an arrow that said "Go here", that we were alone. In God's time and in His place He moves!

"Not by might nor by power, but by My Spirit says the Lord of hosts." ~Zechariah 4:6

Little did we know that the lack of peace we were experiencing this time last year appears to have been the working of the Spirit. Answering the silent prayers of a multitude of people that we may never know, to move us from our rusty comfort, into the middle of this adventure for His glory! Because of this I stand before the King of Kings, humbled.